Soulitude

Solitude is nourishment for my introverted soul.

To deny myself this alone time is negligence.

I need this time to recharge in quietness.

Slow my mind down a bit.

Crawl back into myself,

To introspect

& make sure I let loose of all those energies I’ve gained from interacting.

I got to step back

& shut the world out.

Sometimes it takes a few hours

But most times it takes a few days for me to become social again.

This solitude is nourishment for my soul

Wouldn’t be able to function without it. 

Love Lost.

I never used to like holding hands 

because  they would always get clammy from the nervousness 

but to feel the warmth & closeness of another person 

is all I’ve ever desired because of you.

you’d trace your fingertips across my face & stare deeply into my eyes 

the most intimate I’ve ever been 

& I’ve been searching for that same feeling ever since

you loved so gracefully

with your whole heart & soul, unconditionally.

at the time I wasn’t able to fully express how much you meant to me 

but I thought you could see how my eyes lit up whenever you entered the room

I thought you could hear my heart pumping rapidly underneath my shirt whenever I kissed you

I thought you could feel the fire you ignited within my soul whenever you hugged me

I thought you could smell the scent of bitterness escape every broken part of me you’ve touched 

I guess that just wasn’t enough

I know you deserved to be told every morning  how golden you are.

the love I have for you will never depart

no matter the distance or how far we’ve grown apart 

a letter to a love lost.