Solitude is nourishment for my introverted soul.
To deny myself this alone time is negligence.
I need this time to recharge in quietness.
Slow my mind down a bit.
Crawl back into myself,
& make sure I let loose of all those energies I’ve gained from interacting.
I got to step back
& shut the world out.
Sometimes it takes a few hours
But most times it takes a few days for me to become social again.
This solitude is nourishment for my soul
Wouldn’t be able to function without it.
I never used to like holding hands
because they would always get clammy from the nervousness
but to feel the warmth & closeness of another person
is all I’ve ever desired because of you.
you’d trace your fingertips across my face & stare deeply into my eyes
the most intimate I’ve ever been
& I’ve been searching for that same feeling ever since
you loved so gracefully
with your whole heart & soul, unconditionally.
at the time I wasn’t able to fully express how much you meant to me
but I thought you could see how my eyes lit up whenever you entered the room
I thought you could hear my heart pumping rapidly underneath my shirt whenever I kissed you
I thought you could feel the fire you ignited within my soul whenever you hugged me
I thought you could smell the scent of bitterness escape every broken part of me you’ve touched
I guess that just wasn’t enough
I know you deserved to be told every morning how golden you are.
the love I have for you will never depart
no matter the distance or how far we’ve grown apart
a letter to a love lost.